If I Could Tell You How I Feel

 

 Sometimes if I were to tell you just how I feel

It would be to tell you how afraid I am that my scars won't heal

I would tell you how some days I feel like a total mess

And that some days I feel like our love is a constant test

A test that I am almost sure that I will not pass

So I convinced myself that our love won't last

 

I would tell you how some days I can feel it creeping in

The certainty of unworthiness  buried under my skin

Because I have never met anyone who loves me this much

And I am terrified that I will fuck this up

I would tell you how fear would let me trade my sunshine for rainy days

Because I am broken and dysfunctional in so many ways

I would tell you how I badly want you to be mine to keep

For you to be the one who pulls me up and out from the deep

I would tell you that my love for you run deep in my veins

And that my love for you is like an irremovable stain

Oh Honey! If only I had the courage to tell you how I feel

Then what would happen if  all my demons were to be revealed?