What was I thinking?

 

 "It's over" were his final words
They boomed  so loudly hurting my head
 My heart wasn't immune to the attack
 And with the pain, I felt I might as well be dead

 I thought he was so fine like a perfect work of art
I made him my everything my all
To me, he was the epitome of every girl's dream
And I love him that was my downfall

After I became tired of crying, I began to think
That I blamed myself for doing something wrong
Then I realized that I was being stupid
And that I was doing all the loving  all along

 I tried to figure out why he pretended to like me
 Then it dawned on me that it's because I give him a lot
Then I discovered why he left and sounded so happy
And it hit me hard to find out it's because I'm fat

He made me feel terrible about myself for a while
For months, maybe a year
Then one day I looked in the mirror
And surprisingly, I felt comfortable
I wasn't feeling any pain with my few extra pounds
I discovered that being fluffy is a beauty that is admirable

It took me a while to get pass the hurt
My friends and family helped
And soon my low self-esteem was no longer sinking
Then one day, he had the audacity to ask why I was looking at him
But I was looking past him asking myself
What the hell was I thinking?

 

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