I Had it all Planned Out

 

I had it all planned out

Of exactly how I would say goodbye

 How I would explain why I am all wrong for you

 And how I'm glad that we gave it a try  

 

I had it all planned out

Of exactly what I would say

How I would tell you, we are too different

Like night and day

 

 In my plan

 I wouldn't have to stay long enough

 For you to ask me why

Because then I wouldn't have to say things

 And then be forced to feel guilty

 To have made a grown man cry

 

 I also hoped that you would understand why we can't be

And not beg me to stay

 So I wouldn't have to feel too horrible

As I quickly walked away

 

 And then you stopped by unexpectedly

 And started to cry

You said you needed me to lean on

 And that your mom has just died

 

 I let you lean on me

And then I too started to cry

Because damn!

 There goes my plan,

And my chance to stop living a lie.