I Am Losing Myself

I am losing myself

I am becoming someone completely new

Someone I don't recognize

Someone completely designed by you

 

It's like the Me inside is slowly dying

Disappearing

I can’t feel her, I don't see her

It's like she is not even trying

She is trapped in your clutch

A slave to your touch

It’s too much

It’s killing her

I am losing myself

I don't hear her voice anymore

Not even a whisper or a silent cry

Just the bones breaking beneath the pressure

After been bled dry

With not even enough strength to ask to be released

It’s like she is relieved

That she will no longer be able to feel pain

No longer able to feel shame

For her weakness

For how stupid you make her feel

How insignificant she feels

I am losing myself

She is relieved

That she can feel nothing

She embraces the emptiness, the nothingness

The silence, the peace, the darkness

She is relieved

Because now she can rest

And let the new Me take her place

Fill her space

While she is slowly erased - from herself

Someone please help!

I am losing myself

Penned by Kerisha Blackhall